Today I celebrate SIX YEARS alcohol-free. 6 whole years! ????
It blows my mind how different life is now. Six years ago, I felt utterly lost, beyond broken, and just so freakin’ exhausted by the sick cycle I couldn’t seem to claw my way out of. I was terrified – of socialising sober, of never having fun (EVER again!), but most of all, of myself.
I didn’t know if sobriety was the answer. All I knew was that my heart was broken and I was the one breaking it, over and over again.
I was scared of what would happen if I stopped drinking, but I was more scared of what would happen if I DIDN’T.
So I made a promise. I’d embark on a sobriety experiment – just to see what happened.
I knew that this experiment would challenge me beyond belief; what I didn’t know is that it had the power to change EVERYTHING. That I’d finally figure out who I really am, what makes me tick, and what lights me up. That I’d experience the kind of authentic confidence that comes from keeping promises and being able to rely on and trust myself.
And best of all, that I’d experience true clarity around the type of life that fills me with joy — and have no hesitations in going after it.
It’s filled my heart to bursting to realise dreams I never thought I’d achieve – embracing deeper intimacy in my relationships, creating Sexy Sobriety and welcoming and supporting incredible members from around the world; writing and publishing two BOOKS! (and receiving messages of love from thousands of beautiful readers); a ton of speaking opportunities, podcast, video and editorial interviews (heck, even a television story!) sharing the message of wellness and empowerment.
But what’s changed most is my very soul. I’ve never felt more clear, balanced, confident, peaceful, joyful, or at home in my own skin.
And I just want to reach back and hug that terrified, lost soul from six years ago and tell her it’s all going to be okay. That she isn’t broken.
And that far from being the ending she thinks it is, this is actually just the beginning. ❤️x